Love and Jealousy

  (This is NOT mushy and all about coochie-coos and Kisses) 

It was for a creative-writing paper & I felt like sharing it.

Also, Its not like I do not get jealous. There are times when I'd want to cuddle somebody with a punch. But everyone has weaknesses , Isn't it?

“In jealousy there is more self-love than love.”

François, Duc de La Rochefoucauld, Maxims, 1665

Love. A four lettered word. It’s different for every entity, but  what is it really? Everybody knows it’s beautiful. The whole world seems to go round because of it, but is it what we think it is? It’s not just between a certain number of people. It’s not just magnetism, dependence and sexual inclination. It’s not just between family and friends and lovers. Love is a lifestyle. It’s a practice. It’s food for the spirit. It is sacred and divine. Love is to be patient and kind and have no negativity, no fear and no resentment attached. It never boasts and is never proud. It protects preserves and hopes. Love is faith, love is happiness. It gives you a reason to live and to believe in this world. It is one word that frees us of all the weight and pain of life. It gives us the strength to believe in our tomorrow and this world. It seems complex but it is very simple. It is the power of the universe .That is love.

“There are four questions of value in life:
What is Sacred?
Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for?
& what is worth dying for?
The answer to each one is the same.

ONLY LOVE”

 

What does it take to love? To love another, one must love himself enough. There is no fear, no insecurity or no expectance in love. In today’s world, the definition of love has changed. Love is permanent but has become temporary. Love is unconditional but it’s become conditional. It has limits and boundaries and insecurities and fear and jealousy. Love seems to sustain on jealousy. Jealousy is considered healthy in love but in my opinion love is the antonym of jealousy.

What is jealousy? Jealousy is a direct synonym of fear. Jealousy is controlling someone you love. Jealousy displays lack of trust in one’s own love. In Shakespeare language it is a “green eyed monster”. Wherever jealousy prevails love takes a step back. Then why are people jealous when they are in love? There is a certain point where the fear of losing comes up. But if love is true there is no fear. The feeling of loving itself makes one happy irrespective of getting the love back. This kind of love is true and permanent. Jealousy shows dependency and not loving oneself. If I don’t love myself I will never believe that somebody else loves me and I will doubt it. This is the root of jealousy. When love becomes a practice of the soul one loves everyone equally and has faith in their love. It’s like having faith in god. When we’re going through a problem we are sad but we know deep down that god is there and it will be handled. That is the faith of love as well. When love exists nothing else is needed.

 

Love has no boundaries while jealousy is confined. Love is fearless and powerful while jealousy is weak. Love is selfless while jealousy is selfish and negative. Love is universal and jealousy is very personal. Love is extremely uplifting and jealousy is painful. Love awakens and enlightens the mind heart and soul while jealousy leaves us in deep turmoil. Love is devotion while jealousy is fear of rejection. Love trusts and hopes and waits and jealousy doubts and fails and regrets. Love looks through a telescope, while jealousy looks through a magnifying glass. How can two such words be interconnected? How can such a divine word be compared to a manmade fear?

“Where there is love, nothing but god prevails.” 

Fernweh

Watching the northern lights from the Igloo

Paranal Observatory

French Riviera

Huang Shan Mountains

I have a strange liking for funny sounding, deep meaning words. I also have a liking for languages. Fernweh is a german word and an equivalent for Wanderlust. Fernweh is the passionate desire to travel to exotic places.

They say every person comes with a goal or some kind of a task they have to complete in the world. It sounds funny but I think its a lot like the treasure-hunt game. I used to love it as a child and I think life is pretty-much the same. But whatever this goal is I hope mine involves a lot of traveling.

I want to swim (Fear number 1) In the deep clear waters of Bora-Bora someday, And I want to wear shocking pink fins while I'm at it. I also want to go to the Rain-forests of Amazon and follow the fireflies and sleep in tents. I want to watch the northern lights from Igloos and I want to make snowmen (3 of them) and call them a family! I want to dine at the french rivera, Feed sharks at Australia, I want to go to the pyramids of Egypt, The Churches of Palestine and the Temples of Kerela. I want to touch the sands of atleast 50% of the beaches of the world and I want to sky dive at the grand Canyon :O
I want to go to China and climb the Huang Shan Mountains , My father always tells me its the most beautiful place he has ever visited!  I want to look at the planets through the telescope of the Paranal Observatory. I want to dance with french-men, dine with Spanish wives, Sing with the Bengalis, and Learn to speak 17 Languages. I want to drink wine that is 2000 years old. I want to eat everything that is vegetarian in this world. I want to know about cultures and religions and festivals and why they were made. I want to know who invented the english alphabet (Do not tell me to google it). I want it all first hand , through my senses , what my eyes can see and my mind can decipher. What my skin can feel, the frost heat and raindrops. What my ears can hear, the bumble bee , the dolphin, the waves and the mountain echo. I want it alllllll.

I want to go right out of my comfort zone and feel my breath, I want to feel alive, I want to stop and stare and follow a butterfly's trail, I want to get startled by nature's surprises and watch beauties that actually make me believe in God. I want to feel the power above us because till today I have just mechanically believed he exists. I want to feel the power within me and I want to surprise myself by facing my fears. I want to travel the world, nooks and crannies, valleys and mountains, snow capped and green, sands of seas and desserts, camels, elephants, tigers, sharks, all of that , that nature has to show me. Boats, Aeroplanes, Roads and Rail I want to be a Traveler. I want the journey of my life to be an actual journey. I want to pack my bag with a torch to give me light, a blanket to keep me warm, a book to entertain me and sunglasses so that I can look straight in the eye of the sun. I want to try being an alchemist. (Go on, call me crazy)

Life is a journey, Make it worthwhile,
Much love,

My mother taught me

Written for the mother on her 50th birthday :') My mother means the world to me :)  9/4/2013

The genre is Spoken-Word. Inspired by Sarah Kay.

One day I'll have a little daughter,

And ill teach her every thing  that my mother taught me,

Ill teach her that sorrow is important,

And life is not all about happy,

Because sorrow is what makes us value true happiness when it arrives,

Ill tell her that passion is the secret recipe to beauty

And there should always be a big sparkly reason for you to exist in this world

Ill tell my little daughter to love selflessly yet keep her self respect intact

And be wise yet be very humble

Ill collect little articles and make her read just like my mother does

And ill tell her that learning never stops with degrees and certificates

Ill teach her to cook a little and cook with a big dollop of love

Ill tell her to wash a little on days that she cooks

And ill tell her to weep a little because crying does make you stronger

Ill surround her with pretty flowers, trees and butterflies

Because these are the things one must actually value

 Ill teach her about the little things in life that give so much happiness

A kiss means a million more than a diamond and a hug a little more than a big wad of notes

Because one day the diamond will lose its charm and the wad of notes will soon be spent and forgotten

But the kiss and the hug will touch the soul and add a million bucks more to your life

Ill teach her that nobody is perfect and a crooked nose (If she inherits mine) does not take away the beautiful shine of her eyes

And don’t ever let you big wide eyes lose that shine

I might slap her a little while she goes on the big slides

And I might pull her ear while I teach her math

So that she faces her fears

Because life might have many more fears bigger than slides and math

Ill teach her to be emotional and fiercely expressive just like her grandmother

Because emotions , good or bad is what makes the journey worthwhile

Ill tell her to pick up a goal, or probably a hobby and give it her day and night , her passion, energy and hard work

Maybe her knees will pain and her elbows may twitch

But the happiness she gets from her job will replace no feeling in this world

Ill tell her to laugh obnoxiously loud at the silliest of jokes

Because one needs to make oneself happy at times,

Ill teach her

that being nice is the power of a woman,

And great power always comes with great love.

Ill teach her to be just like her grandmother. 

Comma

Like I said I'm going to write about The Comma.
It comes under recent obsessions.

The Comma. Its a punctuation mark of the English Language.According to the Oxford English Dictionary, the word comma comes directly from the Greek word komma  (κόμμα) which means something cut off or a short clause.

A comma is used at the baseline of a sentence unlike an apostrophe,
It looks like a little shooting star I feel, with a big bright ball and a little star tail,
Shooting stars are beautiful, Aren't they?
They are gorgeous flashes of fading light that tell you to hope and to keep going on,
They do not mark an end but they mark existence,
They are wishing stars too, 
I just paused the previous sentence with a comma :)

Talking about commas, they mark a  pause but not an end. A full-stop marks an end. It marks a period.
Commas signify continuity,
They are so synonymous to knowledge because knowledge is never ending.
I love using lots of commas in my writing,
They signify the continuity of my thoughts and the way my mind goes from one thought to another.
They form a relationship between one sentence and another with a short pause.
I think commas are as beautiful as shooting stars.
They tell you not to give up and end the thought and to keep writing.
They tell you to keep reveling in the beauty of the maze of words and derive a meaning out of it.
They tell you to differentiate yet combine and derive a meaningful sentence.

Commas could symbolize life because they tell you to keep going on gracefully deriving happiness from each phrase or in life's term a phrase could be a phase of life.
The physical situation where a person's brain is dysfunctional for a period of time is called a "Coma".
Today I feel, it is derived from "Comma"  because it marks a pause but not death. It marks hope for the loved ones and gives us a chance for a miracle.
A fullstop could possibly mark permanence or death.
Nothing is permanent, Therefore a Comma,
Much love,

Scripturient

This post is purely for me :')

 It might be entertaining for you but I wanted to list things that I'd love to write about so when I'm out of topics, I can come back here.

I love poetry , Spoken word poetry, so that

Fashion - Once in a while, Its the expression of the soul sometimes,

Music, I thrive on it,

Love, Okay give that to me I'm a girl, mushy is good sometimes

Women, I have this raging fire within

Education,

Random la-la's of my day,

I would draw on days when colors express my feelings more than my words,

and Yes, Songs (The budding song-writer,singer, poet type of a girl)

Random recordings - That I'd hope you give a ear too

Four-legged creatures - (Dogs & Cats) - Confused cat-dog person, More towards the dog side 

BEAAAACHESSSS aaah,

My boy,

My bests, 

Brackets,

Sun Hats, Paragliding and Summer,

Philosophy, I have that side too

Little stories,

Hallucinogenic dreams,

The occasional anger,  Im capable of that too, you know

TreesFlowersMountainsButterflies - Stop & Stare

Great Women 

& Men ( Sometimes)

Quotes I love,

Ideas that ideate,

Recent temporary obsessions,

Now you know 1/200th of me,

The list shall continue,

Much love,

(Just realized my love for commas "," - Maybe I'm going to write about that too)

Firsts

Firsts. Is it even a word? (I love brackets) (Also, I like the "ts" sound that Firsts makes)

Firsts are exciting. They don't have two meanings unlike Seconds.

I am usually very random when I FIRST meet someone.
I often laugh obnoxiously loud and I am judged at times. (I have a split personality when it comes to being judged- I am awfully scared of being judged at the same time I try to make myself believe it doesn't really matter.)

I'm already muddled up in my own thought web.

Firsts are funny, but they're amazing.

First rains smell beautiful, The first kiss feels beautiful, First Love and "all-that-jazz" makes a lot of sense for that moment, First Jobs are jittery, First tattoos are even more jittery (Date 2-12-12) , First blogs are JITTERY-EST. Like I said, Im awfully scared of being judged,

But,

Here I am,

Juie :) 20 years old, 

Writes and saves it on little chits and makes little hidden folders on the laptop, 

Show her awful works sometimes (not-mostly)
Finally coming out of the closet and here is her First Blog. (Date 27-4-2012) (Also, her Best Friend Malavika's birthday)

Thanks for reading,

(Awkward Silence)

Okay Thanks Bye :)

Ps- I'm going to be waaaay more organized, eloquent, flowery and not-so-jittery the next time.

Much love,